Maybe, maybe not

I have a feeling I'm out this cycle. Today is 12dp3dt, which is late for me to not have AF yet, my LP is usually on the shorter 10/11 day range. So you'd think good news. But I had minor spotting last night. Actually, I wouldn't even call it spotting, just a very mild tint on the T.P. I had been having some false alarms the 2 days prior due to pink-colored crinone (progesterone) globs. For anyone ever on progesterone gel, you know these globs of which I speak, one of the lovely yet innocuous side effects to ART. But some quick consults to Dr. Go.ogle assured me that "salmon" colored globs are pretty common, something many users report. From the few REs with a theory, they seem to think that the cervix can get a little irritated either by the applicator (which ideally touches the cervix when you inject the gel) or just by the gel itself sitting around it. But anyway, I digress.... the "spotting" wasn't bad and hasn't seemed to increase this morning. But I just feel like I'm out this cycle. We'll see... I'll be on constant alert (you know what I mean). If I can make it to Wednesday morning for my beta, it'll be a victory unto itself, both for my sanity and the fact that for the first time in my life "spotting" doesn't turn into AF within a day.

In other news - yes! sometimes I talk about non-TTC things! - I'll be starting my Microbiology class tomorrow night. It'll be Tuesdays/Thursday for 6 weeks. It's one of the prerequisites I need in order to apply to nursing school. I'll have to see if I change my mind during this prerequisite phase - I'm famous amongst my friends for toying with almost every type of grad school. I took the LSATs, culled applications, but never got as far as applying. I took the GMATs (in South Dakota, no less, but that's a story for another day), applied, got into Dartmouth's Tuck business school, accepted and bailed before I started. I once accidentally implied to a blind date that I took the MCATs but then didn't care enough to correct this misconception since I knew I wouldn't see him again ;). So, we'll see if I make it through the prereqs + GRE and follow through with nursing school. I do need to make a move eventually, especially if this quest for a bean doesn't pan out. I like my job enough, and I've had really bad jobs in the past, so I know I have it much better than I could. But I work from home in a town that I just moved to when I got married 3 years ago, so my local social life consists mostly of NG and the cats and the occasional in-law visit. Everyone always says "when you have kids, you'll meet so many new people". Um, yeah, we see how well that's gone. So I'm trying to take the bull by the horns and move into a career that I think I'll really like, will give me the flexibility to move anywhere in the country, will allow me to continue to dream about joining the Peace Corps after retirement and actually have a skill they'll value. Somehow I don't think Web Development is something in great demand on the African tundra.

Also, finally, for those of you who have HBO and don't watch True Blood, you're crazy! It's such a kick-ass summer show, lots of southern gothic fun and vampires! Last night's ep was great, there's a new monster in town and NG and I have all sorts of theories. It was a great hour spent not obsessing about the 2WW. If you don't have HBO, Season One is available on DVD, check it out!