How low I've sunk

I just yelled at my cat. My crazy, food-obsessed cat. Who has no idea why I'm yelling or what I'm saying just that there are really loud sounds coming out of my mouth.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, for multiple reasons. One, work has been hectic due to other people's lack of ability to follow a schedule and my being the last in line, as a web developer, for getting things up on our company's website. For some reason other people feel like it's OK to miss their due dates by a mile and deliver me something that I should have one to two weeks to code the day before it's supposed to go live. And it's not an option for me to be late because then, apparently, the world would end. I've been trying to whip this process into shape and my manager is jumping on board because I think they're finally realizing that I'll be out for 10-11 weeks soon and if it's this bad now, it's only going to be worse while I'm out and the holiday season ramps up.

Two, my best friend at work looks to very likely be leaving for a new job. I wish him nothing but the best, he's a great guy and deserves this opportunity. That being said, I'm having a total pity party for myself because he's the only one I can really talk honestly with about work and co-workers and I'm going to be lost without that venting resource. Plus, we make each other laugh, which will be sad to lose.

Three, my plans for Friday night which I was excited about got scrapped late last night in favor of something else. It's not a big deal, democracy rules and others chose an alternate plan. But I was looking forward to Friday night and now not so much, which stinks.

The weird thing is, I'm sitting here typing this and feel like I might start crying when truly nothing is all that bad!! Methinks pregnancy hormones may finally be kicking in?

Oh, and I yelled at my cat because he has this really annoying habit of meowing (and he has an obnoxious, caterwauling meow, not a cute "mew") when he's worried about his automatic feeder dish opening. We need to feed him via this dish because if he sees us as his food distributor he caterwauls at us every single time we enter the kitchen. So we put his feeder in the basement and try to make him disassociate us from food. However, he is pretty clever and knows when his automatic feeder is empty and/or when it's just been refilled. And either scenario makes him panic with the idea that IT.MAY.NEVER.OPEN.AGAIN. It was empty last night, so DH refilled it and it was all set to open at 11:15am, like it always does. Well, I happened to be on the phone with Customer Service at Baby Trend because the Snap n' Go stroller that we bought as a lightweight companion to our jogging stroller is missing it's "rear basket bar" to allow the bottom basket to stand up straight and be usable. Not a world crisis, mind you, but I want to be able to use that basket. The customer service rep I was speaking with spoke a mile a minute (and that's impressive for me to say since I'm a fast-talking native New Yorker) and quietly, so I was having a hard enough time hearing her at all. But then the cat comes up in my face, at 11:10 - five minute before his dish is supposed to open - with his weekly panic attack, yowling so loud I couldn't hear the rep. I shushed him a few times, tried to scoot him back down the basement stairs with my foot, even threw a flip flop in his general direction. Nothing stopped his panic. Finally I had to put the woman on mute and yell "SHUT UP AND GO DOWN TO YOUR DISH!!" to which he just looked at me in disgust and sauntered downstairs. Now he's lying happily next to my feet on the ottoman, feeling full and licking his paws.

Not my proudest moment but he seems none the worse for wear. Anyway, yes, I'm having a bad day. But I still realize that I'm the luckiest gal on earth because I am exactly 6 weeks from my due date for a baby that I have no business having successfully created (with the help of DH an science) given what I look like, fertility-wise, on paper. So while the day may be grey (literally), there is a very bright light in the horizon.

:)