Update: follie check #2

Ugh, I'm trying to keep a stiff upper lip here, but it's like IF Gods hate me. Every time I make peace with the basket of crap I've been given, they think of another way to screw me.

I just spoke with my nurse. She confirmed the two follies at 17mm but also told me that my E2 has only gone up to 304 (from 298) since Sunday. In addition, my progesterone level is creeping up. These combined are not a good sign because it sounds like my body is wanting to ovulate on its own. Plus, there is the mysterious disappearance of that 3rd follie, so they think instead of it pooping out, it maybe has actually released on its own.

I have to say that I'm not totally surprised after my hormones had been stuck in neutral for 6 weeks, but I do want to scream. I'm going in again tomorrow for another check and depending on that, the cycle may be canceled or converted to IUI. Either of which will still count as an IVF according to my insurance company, so I lose one of my precious covered cycles no matter what. Stupid fuckers.

To rub salt in the wound, I was forced to use the word "relations" (in lieu of "sex") on the phone with the nurse and I felt like a total tool. But at least I've confirmed that NoodleGuy and I should get busy tonight, just in case. I don't think I need to tell you how not-in-the-mood I am.

Thanks fucking universe. I thought I had seen and done it all and you found something shiny and new to screw with me. I have lost my newfound zen. Blah.