So, never mind on the guessing that I'm about to ovulate soon; my temp stayed way low this morning. Despite my attempts at mind over matter to make myself have a normal cycle from day 1 after the D&E, clearly that's not happening. I think my body is still readjusting its hormone levels, though I'm clearly dancing around in the follicular phase. Not that I'm deluding myself into thinking that any actual follicles -- or, to be exact, the one single follicle that ever attends my party -- is doing anything.
I know I should just ignore everything until the first AF, but I'm too much of a nerd. I am drinking coffee and beer, eating bleu cheese, certainly not denying myself anything. But I am wasting time analyzing BBT. At my STBY appt with the RE next week, I'll ask him to do blood work so we can confirm exactly where I am in my cycle. Of course, I'm jumping ahead of myself since I have alot of stuff to weigh before jumping back into TTC. God, I hope I don't cry at the RE's office, it'll be the first time I see him since losing Peanut. He was so proud of me for graduating from him, one of his least likely patients to move on at all, much less on a natural cycle. I almost feel like I'm letting him down, like when you disappointed your dad and he was nice about it but you still knew that you let him down.
One interesting note for today: at lunch I stopped by Mich.ael's crafts store (I want to make some pillows for the living room) and Randy Moss of our local New England Pa.triots was there. Bizarre. If he had been at the B.est B.uy a few stores down it wouldn't have been a surprise, but Mich.ael's? Not expected.
I wonder what craft Randy Moss participates in? Latch Hooking?
ReplyDeleteI go for my WTF appointment on Thursday. I'm hoping I don't cry as well. I'm looking forward to moving on in some capacity.
Hope you're doing well.
that is neat that you saw a famoous person in the store. Did you say hi?
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean about obsessing even though it's not time to get started again. I hope you do regulate and are able to get back in the game soon.
Don't give up hope that you will ovulate soon. I'm still holding out that we ovulate together. Hey, I gotta have something. :-) If you do cry at the RE's office, don't let it be because you feel like you are letting him down. I'm sure he feels like he let you down, too. It's his job to get you knocked up and he hasn't been able to do it just yet so I'm sure he feels bad, too.
ReplyDeleteI'm not a Patrio.ts fan, but it's cool that you saw Randy Moss at the craft store. I would have followed him to see what he was doing there. :-)
Randy Moss?! Was he getting ready to decorate for Halloween? Haha :)
ReplyDeleteI hope the appt with your RE goes well. I cry at almost every appt with any fertility-type conversation, so I don't think you should feel guilty if you do. He may feel bad for you, but hopefully he'll use that sympathy to help you figure out what to do next!
I am totally trying to figure out what Randy's secret crafting love is...I am voting scrapbooking. All about him, of course. He's had a good season so far, he probably ran out of pages yesterday.
ReplyDeleteI hope that your appointment with the RE goes well and you don't cry.