I'm starting to stress about about my short-term plans. I work full-time now as a Tech Lead, a job that takes my entire day and then some. Though I will readily admit that if a carrot was dangled over me with the tease of being able to log off for the day and run away as soon as all of my work was done for the day, I could stop myself from being distracted by the interwebs and get it all done in half the time. Of course, that doesn't take into account that much of my job is being available to clients and answering questions for developers, etc. But if we're talking straight up, nose-to-the-grindstone work, I could probably get it done most days in 4-5 hours.
Anyway, obviously the plan is to add a bean or two to this mix. Challenging, sure, working FT and juggling a babe or two. But NoodleGuy is a great partner, we're lucky enough to be able to afford some daycare and the in-laws are just waiting for the slightest whiff of a grandchild and they'll be moving in somewhere close by, no doubt. But, wait! There's more. I am also starting classes this summer, taking prerequisites to enter a nursing program in Fall of 2010. Yep, the plan is to leave the rat race and constant stress over the fear of outsourcing and to work toward becoming a nurse practitioner. And I started having a panic attack this morning that all I juggle right now is the job, how in the world will I be able to juggle two other FT endeavors simultaneously?
The plan would be that I would continue working - I work from home, and it allows me a pretty good bit of flexbility. I grew up in a home without much money, and going back to worrying about bills getting paid is not something to which I want to go back. Therefore, giving up my entire income for school is not really an option for me. So, it would be a challenge, but I think I chould manage to handle my job and school, albeit with some challenges. But, hello! My biggest priority in this whole thing would be the bean(s) -- I'd obviously want them to have the vast majority of my attention. But the crux of the issue here is my tendency to borrow trouble. I'm worrying about this now even though I'm not even close to pregnant, I have not even started with my first prerequisite class (I need to take 8 of them). Instead of taking it as it comes, perhaps putting off nursing school for a few years (so I could attain the world record of Oldest Nursing Student ever) or maybe going part-time at my job, I'm stressing about this now.
I'm going to try not to look too far ahead and worry. After all, in this "worst case scenario" of juggling the three things above, it means that I will have attained my dream of having a baby. And, hey, that's what this is all about, isn't it? So, I'll deal with the rest as they come.
I do the same thing. But, I've learned that I need to go ahead with whatever plans I may have. And when a pregnancy comes along, I will do what millions of fertile people do - adjust! When we first started TTC, we stressed about how we would afford for me to stay home, etc. Now, we are just working toward that goal slowly. If a pregnancy happens, we'll do whatever it takes to get to where we need to be.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you have a good outlook :)